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 I slowly yanked my eyes open at the sight of the gleaming sun beaming through the window. I finally had my eyes completely open, when I did nothing but drew a smile on my face to reflect the emotions busting from the seams inside of me. It was morning, and I was normally not a morning person, but this morning was different. I rolled over and smiled. There it was. There he was. The love of my life; the most wonderful thing to ever walk into my life. And even now, I still love him the same as I did five years ago when we first met on Facebook. Call me insane, but it turned into be the best thing to ever happen to me. What started as simple,

I swore to myself If love is to seek me The love is to find me And I shall rejoice And love to him how I would to myself But cold to the core I grew bitter Chilled to the vessel I was A freezing soul Frostbitten to each limb I found myself colder than the poles of South And black-hearted as a demon I said that brighter days are to come But I forbade myself to believe A lie was a routine that I evolved to But stubborn to know That the brightest of all days would come And that perfection of a boy Would be the sun to my every day With a smile that shatters The eyes that pierce And the face of an angel I found myself lost, but found In an odyssey

I can taste your body On my lips So sweetly you touch me I can almost feel the beat Running So soft the feel But how strong the emotions The temptation and confusion Is almost the reason why I love you Sometimes even I love you for you Is it the lust Or is it the passion That I love about you?

Every time you touch me I can feel a spark The bolts running strong Through the veins Grope me harder Because I know it's a crime I couldn't find a simple care For those who disagree But I love you Not just for the satisfaction But for you being yourself Perfection Beauty Shock I wish you'd electrocute me Down on me Shock me hard and long These are just little benefits Of being in love Even when my mind Screams at me The lust and compassion will clash I can find a compromise To where I can be in love But let my demons roam free To explore Distant lands and power

Fantasize about the pain Please yourself Because you're just a little Worthless voodoo doll Stab a needle tight Flood the cotton wounds Yell at it Scream at it Stab it Because you're your own little Worthless voodoo doll Stab yourself, voodoo Rip your little stuffing out Bit by bit Sulk at the sight Your little button eyes Because you realize, you're just a Worthless voodoo doll Nothing better to do But stab Stab yourself to orgasm Pain Voodoo, you cry At your hands Because you know they're fake Worthless voodoo doll Voodoo, friends They stab him They lie to him Voodoo, you weep Over a knife Because you know you

I'm staring into This parallel universe Crying my tears of black I see it now It's horrible face It's menacing ways to kill He's a wreck He's a bitch He's a faggot What else can you say? You've already got him convinced The mirror is a crime to him But his paint to hide the fate He paints to love To find a shoulder to cry on To find the confidence to ware it down To a science To paint over pain To paint over hate To paint over a broken soul Maybe to hide the fact that he's hurt But what else can be taken When he's faking it all? Paint over it Paint it and hide it

Whenever I fall asleep I feel my blood just racing faster Creeping up to find a lover To devour in pain and laughter It's a terrible love to be A painful love to see But surely it's not Intentionally It's a hobby to be It's a habit of greed Maybe it's not his fault He loves him softly just to find a lie But he stabs his eyes To stop himself to cry To wreak a soggy majesty Upon a murderer in the sympathy It's an experiment A love is just a testing But do you think upon His past before you flee? Cleverness It's a serving winch But it's a saw to be in half of thee To die and flatter the stench

Sometimes when I'm alone I can feel you touching my hand I can feel you grasp my arms and rub the wounds Whenever I've hurt myself I can feel you rubbing my side whenever I cut You whisper in my ear and tell me "it will all be okay, I promise." I can feel you holding me Rocking me back and forth in your arms Just continuously rocking I can doze off and dream you're holding me But I wake up to find just a picture Even now, I can accept that you're gone It gets harder every day living without you I feel like I see you sometimes Only when I close my eyes, though I see you there and I want to come and hug you But every step I tak

Sometimes I can look over my shoulder and I will see him there. Almost like some kind of deep shadow. He watches me. Every single step I nudge. Every muscle that jots forward. He watches me. I often feel him in my brain. He will sometimes climb on it and command. Like a horse and buggy. My brain could be the buggy and he's the rider. He uses his whips and chains to make me do anything he wants. He'll tell me how to feel. He'll push me toward sharp things. He'll make me feel like a typhoon. I feel like and endless tunnel of doom. Once you talk to me, I always let you trespass. You slide down in the tunnel. Almost like you're e

I looked up above me And saw your sweet face Your eyes so gleaming Your lips so divine I smiled at you You smiled back at me I kissed your lips so sweetly And pulled you down on me I said, "babe, we can do this all day" You opened your mouth Said something about The way I found your love Baby, don't ever let me go Stay right here I wanna feel you close Love me hard and say something sweet I wanna feel your body over me Lose yourself in my hazel eyes Find yourself in my paradise Gather your love, take me by surprise I can feel you breathing sweet So just put your body over me Love me down like it's not real Kiss me longe

I am single, but I am loved. I am not a genius, but I am intelligent. I am not breathtaking, but I have beauty. I am not a saint, but I am kind. To the world, I am not perfect. But for someone, I am.